“Why can’t I get the retaining wall built here?” thought
Leela. “ The soil of that area erodes a
lot in heavy rains. It plunges into the paddy field.”
She,my sister Leela had gone to her
indigenous village on a vacation. She visited her land obtained in legacy. Quickly
she made arrangements for assigning the work to some labourers.
She stood there enjoying the swinging of spades, shovels etc
in the hands of workers. The earth moved and moved and stuck on the
construction wall. Then suddenly a small uneasiness-we can’t call it a
pain-loomed as an unsought guest in her right arm-pit. She neglected it as if
the result of straining after her objective.
Since it was not given its deserving attention, it made its
presence more felt. She pulled on till the tag end of her motive. She couldn't
help seeking advice from a doctor; she had to fly to her present habitat in
Delhi. Tests and examinations revealed a growth inside. Her hay days had been
exhausting. Hospital-home, home-hospital she travelled intensely. Surgery, injections,
biopsy, chemo, medicines and all such usual events mercilessly rode on her body.
Due information
reached the nearest and dearest. I, her sister, started dragging a pull-over of
emotions and feelings on my mind. She, my sister was no doubt loving and
lovable, simple and straight and efficient and self-reliant. Humbleness and
humility was her masterpiece in behavior. She could hurt none through her talks
or actions. Helping others in need never had any tint of reluctance. Volition
was the title of all her deeds.
She was a capable cook, an expert tailor and a proficient
housekeeper of her own domicile. She felt gleeful in the company of kith and
kin and served them opulent food. But she never allowed others to come home to
her at the fullest.
In our childhood days we had a good many amusements which
the diminutives experience in general and village kids in particular. She used
to iron the garbs of both of us, since I had no hesitation to wear them
creased. We, the children dawdled in the vast and natural garden and orchard, plucking flowers and picking fruit.
My obstinacy and tenacity invited rigorous punishment from elders which
soaked her little heart. She consoled me with soothes and strokes of affection
abundant. Delay to the school due to my doggedness earned her also, punishment
from teachers. My beloved acca(elder sister)
never frowned or mopped at me. Unlike the sluggishness dwelt in me, she used
up her childhood in the upkeep of the house and households. I don’t claim that
she was an angel with no untoward behavior. She had the innate flaws and
faults, but the degree measurement was very meagre.
“When will you come to Delhi? September-October disposes a
suitable climate and we can have long pilgrimages,” she used to persuade us.
“We will be there to visit you one day,” the response.
Yes, we visited her no doubt, not in October, but in
November on a mere phone-call. One day a phone-call whispered that unfavorable,
unpromising news in our ears. We saw
her lying on the hospital-bed, completely cut-off from the environs. She lay
there surrounded by tubes, aided by ventilator and assisted by the medical
corps. Then into a corpse she turned within minutes as her last breath had
bidden adieu to her.She had that pilgrimage now.
Yes, she is my sister now lying here with fingers tied, toes
fastened, mouth closed and nose plugged with cotton.
O! What a fate? She was quite healthy. Never had she
displayed any symptom of any ailment. Rivulets and streams emerge out of my eyes and
nose. Heart is gaining weight of glum and gloom, body is expressing inability
to stand. Sobs and sighs do not stay inside. My mind is crying, literally
crying, it is not heeding to any console or solace.
“Oh! God, why are you after healthy
humans, when there are numerous very old ones awaiting your proximity? Fatal ailments in plenty are triumphant over
innocent energetic people, may they be young or old.
“Ha! But I should thank you because you granted her to have the journey to the infinite, in a very calm and painless way. So thank God! Thanks!
Thanks!”
My heartfelt condolences to you and your family. May she rest in peace.
ReplyDeleteThank you,SG.
DeleteWhy blame God?What has he done and what can he do? Is it not the law of Nature that all things must pass?
ReplyDeleteYes,mortality is immortal, but still..,thank you.
ReplyDeleteAlthough we know everybody has to go one day, still I can understand your pain, especially when there are lots of people waiting for this to happen to them, waiting for the battery of their lives to get over. It is really sad.
ReplyDeleteThank you,Rama.Time has to travel to heal the wound.
ReplyDeleteMy heartfelt condolences Time will heal the wound...eventually.
ReplyDeleteYes, Time being the curator may heal.Thank you.
Deletei couldn't believe the post would end this way... it's sad... my condolences...
ReplyDeleteThank you,Pratikshya.Man proposes,God disposes or approves.
Deleteeven this shall pass. time will heal the wound...
ReplyDeleteThank you,Pinky.
DeleteI felt sad reading it, Rudra but I sure she is still with u.
ReplyDeleteVishal
Yes,Ranveer.Thank you.
DeleteMy heart is with you. Though we all everyone must take that path someday, it doesn't make the parting any easier. So sad. May God be with you and help you find comfort as you cope. ♥
ReplyDeleteThank you,Kathy.
Delete:(
ReplyDeleteHugs and more hugs!! Sending prayers your way...
I'm so sorry for your loss!
Thank you,Pixie.
DeleteI am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your memories of her with us. Our loved ones never leave us though we feel that way. Your sister will be with you every step of the way. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteThank you,Suzy.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. My heart goes out to you. Memories when shared often multiply the joy and divide the sorrow. I do believe this.... We all are here to share the pain with you....
ReplyDeleteRicha
Thank you,Richa.
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